It can't really be as bad as it is...

For those of you who know me, you will not be surprised that I've seen Dune a number of times. And in that film there is a scene where they compress a soldiers body with a heavy stone until every drop of liquid has been extracted. they do this, because they live on a desert planet and greatly need the water. lately i've sort of felt like that soldier. alot of things have been weighing on my mind lately. you see, we were expecting to get these great jobs at the nuclear power plant, they would have paid off nearly all of our student loans and we could choose nearly anywhere to work. perhaps phoenix, to keep with the desert theme. however these jobs fell through, and now we are nearing the end of our lease. most of the cheap apartments around our area have been snatched up by people who were lucky enough to get the nuke plant jobs. (nearly 350 in number) and so everywhere we look is overpriced or has camouflaged wallpaper. (not a joke) is missing part of the ceiling and looks like it is still a working meth lab. but luckily i still have my job! or do i? I've been bounced around between two stores for the last 3 months. in the past 35 days i have had 7 days off and have worked 11 days in a row, twice! my shift last night was filled and i was sent home with no prior notice. and today my shift was cut in half with only an hour notice. I am a full time assistant manager and supposedly they are required to give me 38 hours a week. I am now below 28.  I am continually belittled by my boss in front of other employees and customers and his superior has told me to "deal." I have never been disliked by my coworkers and certainly never hated. here i am both. I honestly cannot think of a single thing i have ever done to these people that would warrant even a harsh look. I have worked off the clock, ran errands on my own time and even used my truck to move a trailer for them not because i was asked to, but because i was told to. I have been written up three times for things i never did and that they have no proof of. in one of the instances i wasn't even in the same state at the time. I keep thinking to myself that it can't be as bad as it is... but it is. I can't quit because without this job we can't even afford our rent and they won't fire me, so i can't collect unemployment. I have applied to every job i can think of or heard of within 20 miles. past that there is nothing until you hit green bay or sheboygan, which is nearly 40 minutes away.

and maybe thats what we need to do is move somewhere else. but i don't know where. and i don't know how.

I have given all that i can and all that i will. please crush something else.